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==== a wk before chinese new yr ==== being long since i last update my blog... kind of busy for the past 1 wk.... lots of work to clear.... from the moment i step into the office and on the com... i am kept busy straight till 545pm.... i dun have the habit to work OT... so i will pack my stuff and clear the thing for the day.... the rest will wait till the next day... cos i believe no maater how many hrs we put in a day we will nv be able to clear all jobs on hand.... and our body system should rest after a certain hrs of work to recharge for the next day...... i went to pay the registration fees for my course last thursday....on did i mention what i will be studying... will be taking the LCCI double diploma in business administration and private secretary..... i will officially start my lesson on the 8 feb 2006.... really looking forward.... the whole course will take ard 10mths including exam to finish... so at the end of the course i will be present with 2 diploma and 5 cert.... which make a total of 7 paper...... but this 7 paper dun come cheap... it cost me a total of $2080 and 10mths of effort to get it.... wish me luck in my study.... chinese new yr is approaching in a wk time... 7days from today will be the first ay of new yr.... to alot of people out there they must be looking forward to it... happy tat new yr has once again arrive.... a time where family have their reunion.. but to me it just another typical day... i no longer look forward to new yr just like wat i use to in the past.... to me it just nothing but problem to me...un happiness more then happines.... everything are going on well before new yr but each time when new yr are approaching everything seen to be going down hill.... i oso duno wat causes all this to happen.... but i am feeling tired of it... totally draining me off... i went town early yesterday morning.... was fine and alright in the morning.. till something happen tat spoilt my mood totally.... at that point of time i fell totally helpless... i duno who i can turn to for a shoulder to lean on.. i try not to let tears........ i just walk abt aimlessly.... till i start to msg a few frends.... 3 of them to be exact... msg kor, ting and angel..... of this 3 ting reply asking me wat happen cos i am surppose to meet her in the evening.... kor reply as well... he is working in town so i waited for her lunch break to meet up with her... at that point of time i am in a more stable condition... talked to kor kor till her lunch time is over... he went back to work and i just make my way down to suntec... my inital plan for the day is to meet up with ting for movie at marina square... in her shoe at 620pm.... reached suntec at 3plus... went to collect my photo.... but i got to wait for another 1hrs for them to develop ..... well nothing to do again i walk aimlessly at suntec... ting msg and called a few time...in conclusion she is not coming out cos she is having an eye infection.... when i already book and collect the tickets for the show.... so well i tot i shall just go watch the movie alone so as not to waste the tickets.... i tot i can do it... but i duno y... at that point of time i can no longer take it... tears just roll down my cheeks... thinking over wat happen earlier at orchard.... walking all the way from the k box to starbucks.... cant imagine tat thru out i am crying... even when i sit at starbucks for a drink i am still crying... not matter how i tell myself not to... tears just keep rolling down.... being long since i just cry out in public.... feeling totally helpless.... totally drain out... hate myself totally... stay there for an hrs plus... collect my photo and decide not to watch the movie.... in the end i meet up with ting for dinner at mall... my first proper meal for the day.... by then i am totally drain out... totally tired... mentally and emotionally.... i reach home before 10pm.... lock myself up in my room... duno wat to do... just lie down there thinkin and thinking.... stoning in short..... being long since i am in this kind of stage.... i am totally tired this time.... had enough of all this nonsense.... sigh.... from -=Juan=- in her Own World... 1:07 PM  |
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.....____JuAn_____..... = i am a Dreamer of things - Dream Big = = i am a "Gan Jiong Spider" - want to get things done fast = = i can be rather Fickle Minded - Indecision = = i can become real Emotional at nite - tat ME = = believe that everything happends for a reason = = i am Happy with My Life - with my Love ones by my Side = = Treasure Friendship alot - Values time spend together with them = = i Trust people too easily - end up getting Hurt myself = = Saturday is the only day i look forward to everyweek = =i likes Mickey Mouse, my childhood friend - Do i look like one = = Eeyore is my favourite cartoon character - How i wish it is orange in color = = Orange is my Favourite color - just like the Sun = = i loves Chocolates n Ice Cream, as well as Caramel - Yummy = = i likes to Drink Water - Water Tank = Coffee is my breakfast partner = = Potato is my Favourite food = Likes to self take pictures - "too zhi nian" = = Need long hours of sleep - But Hardly gets enough = = Likes to spend time at home - Homely = = In conclusion, i am just the gal next door...... .... Close to my Heart .... =Angeline= =Benji= =Christina= =Daphne= =Evelyn= =Johnathan= =Magdalene= =Mice= =Qiuying= =Sam= =Tingting= .... Networking.... =SingNet= =Friendster= =Ringtone= =Chinese MP3 Song= =English MP3 Song= .... Whisper ....          |