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morning to all... first thing i wan to say is Happy birthday to myself.. whahah...so fast turining 19 le.. old liao ah... heeheehee... well, i am in the lab now... sat morning still in the lab so pathetic right.. but no choice cos now doing my final yr project so sat still need to come sch...done nothing much for my project yet.. meeting my supervisor later to discuess more about my project stuff.... hmm well although today is my birthday but to me is another normal day lor.. will not be celebrating bah... everyone is rather busy with their work and i dun think my parent even bother abt it or even remember is their daughter birthday today lor.. most of my frend send me msg to greet me and stuff yet i dun hear anythink form my family member... sad right... sigh....but is alright la use to it le...feeling rather emo this morning thinking of wat happen yesterday...it the worst birthday gift i ever received lor.. dun wish to tok much about it oso... sigh... msg ting last nite... she was asking how i celebrating my bdae today... told her i not celebrating lor cos my parent dun even bother abt it and stuff lor... and she actually ask me out to watch movie after work as a small celebration lor..i know she is oso rather tired recently due to work and stuff but she still accompany me go watch movie with... so sweet of her lor.. thank gal... recently i have been thinking quite alot lor.. over stuff at home and in sch... feeling quite stress up actually... my parent are giving me alot of stress.. project stuff are giving me alot of stress.... and i am not feeling well recently lor.. coughing away the whole nite end up nv really slp... sigh... feeling rather tired lor.... even though at time i am not feeling great/ happy i cant show it out... esp at work... i need to put on a smile.... i draw a clear line between work and personal stuff.. so i hope i will not let my feeling afffect my work bah... but it hard lor.. having to smile when u dun feel like smiling lor..at time i just wan to be myself... be who i am lor.. but i cant.. i need to do stuff to please my parent... even at time there are thing which i dun wish to do but i have to lor.. just to make every one happy..looking alright on the surface but not really lor... haveing to hide all my feeling is hard...trying to put up a fake smile and stuff in front of eveyrone...feeling rather tired oso le... sigh... but i oso how lor..and althought i have being trying very hard le.. but mum are still not please with me lor.. she is really giving me alot of stress... she told me she is stress but i am even more stress... in sch i need to be a perfect student excel in my study and sch activies.... at work i need to put on a friendly face and make sure sale is going on well... at home i need to be a gd sister to my sibling and a gd daughter who do anything my parent request... only when i am alone then i can be myself cos i dun even show out my real feeling even when i am with my frend.... sigh... i am tired le.. really really very tired....=( from -=Juan=- in her Own World... 9:24 AM  |
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.....____JuAn_____..... = i am a Dreamer of things - Dream Big = = i am a "Gan Jiong Spider" - want to get things done fast = = i can be rather Fickle Minded - Indecision = = i can become real Emotional at nite - tat ME = = believe that everything happends for a reason = = i am Happy with My Life - with my Love ones by my Side = = Treasure Friendship alot - Values time spend together with them = = i Trust people too easily - end up getting Hurt myself = = Saturday is the only day i look forward to everyweek = =i likes Mickey Mouse, my childhood friend - Do i look like one = = Eeyore is my favourite cartoon character - How i wish it is orange in color = = Orange is my Favourite color - just like the Sun = = i loves Chocolates n Ice Cream, as well as Caramel - Yummy = = i likes to Drink Water - Water Tank = Coffee is my breakfast partner = = Potato is my Favourite food = Likes to self take pictures - "too zhi nian" = = Need long hours of sleep - But Hardly gets enough = = Likes to spend time at home - Homely = = In conclusion, i am just the gal next door...... .... Close to my Heart .... =Angeline= =Benji= =Christina= =Daphne= =Evelyn= =Johnathan= =Magdalene= =Mice= =Qiuying= =Sam= =Tingting= .... Networking.... =SingNet= =Friendster= =Ringtone= =Chinese MP3 Song= =English MP3 Song= .... Whisper ....          |